I really don’t have much of a green thumb, but I thought I would at least give it a try. Surprisingly, planting a mini-garden (even on the balcony), was fun and therapeutic. I know it doesn’t look like much, but for the beginner of all beginners, I’m pretty content with how it turned out. The hard part is done, now all I have to do is help it along. And wait.
Any time we dig into something unknown, a bunch of emotions can arise. Take a counselling session for example. Feelings of fear, excitement, sadness, anger and joy can all come up. A mixture of emotions thrown in every direction, in a time span of 55 minutes. The hard part is done. You’ve worked through a bunch of crap, possibly planted some new ideas and given yourself a whole bunch of self love in the process. And now you wait. You head out into the world, as before, but now with just a bit more information. A bit more awareness that you might not have had before. You start to see things differently. You begin to reflect. You see patterns that you didn’t recognize before. With this reflection, you begin to change. You begin to grow. Yes, it’s hard and sometimes it hurts, but you know deep down – this is good. You keep working on yourself, nurturing yourself, doing whatever it takes to feel good. And then – you wait.
You might not recognize the changes at first, which can become frustrating. “This stuff doesn’t work!”, you might say, or, “what a waste of time!”. But just wait. Just below the surface, things are starting to stir. Change, good change, is happening. And then – you notice. You didn’t get triggered like you had in the past, or you were able to comfortably talk about a situation with a new sense of confidence and a new perspective. There it is – the hard work paid off.
Keep working on yourself. Keep digging through all the crap that’s built up over the years that isn’t needed. It’s worth it. It’s hard, and sometimes it sucks, but it’s worth it. With time, and a whole lot of self love, you can challenge the old and stale belief systems that are ingrained deep within us and start creating a life that you choose and love. It feels pretty darn good when you start to see progress. Like when you see the first sprout of your first ever planted kale plant (fingers crossed), it’s pretty cool.
Dig into the unknown and uncomfortable. Plant some new seeds. Give yourself a whole bunch of everything good. And watch yourself grow. It’s pretty amazing.
Just one of 365 ways to Smile with your Heart!