I haven’t had a lot of time off lately, hence the blogging hiatus. On my days off from work, I seem to be either taking courses or studying for courses. The brain is feeling a little mushy, I must say. Instead of burning the candle at both ends, which I’ve been known to do many times before, I’ve been making sure to put myself first. I figure, if I’m not feeling lit up it’s hard for me to light others up. Which is where this post is inspired from.
I have been ‘too busy’, ‘too tired’ for yoga lately. Or so I have been telling myself. Making myself believe. I looked back recently to a time where I was feeling really good, only a few weeks ago. Energized. Glowing. What was I doing? What was I incorporating into my life that was making me feel so good? Why was I feeling so good? Well, I boiled it down to a few things, but the number one for me was – yoga. I was making time for yoga. Scheduling my life as much as I could around yoga classes. Making time for me. No matter what that took. So that’s just what I’ve been doing over the past few days. Showing up. Sitting on my mat. And that’s. That’s when things once again started to change. When the magic started to glow.
I sat on my mat, on the first class that I wasn’t dreading going to (this is how tired I’ve been – grrr shift work). A funny, almost mystical calm feeling came over me. ‘I am home’. A feeling. A knowing. A love for myself. A reminder to my soul of just how important this practice is for me. It is my balance. My most important commitment. I can’t forget this.
Inspire. The word I chose when we were asked to think of a word, of an intention that represents our most blissful state. We were asked to imagine ourselves overcome by this feeling. To imagine it pouring out of our hearts. To dedicate our practice to this intention, and then to take it with us off the mat. And so I did. Even though I wasn’t necessarily feeling inspired, I took it with me everywhere I went. Like a glowing light leading the way. And what did I notice? Things started to change. Just by letting the word resonate inside of me, I noticed myself start to feel it. Just by changing my thoughts. And by realizing what my body was asking for. To not lose focus of what’s most important to me. My commitment. My yoga. My practice. Which I’ve learned that everything in my life needs to surround. Wow. What a difference. Of making and sticking to a commitment. Of recognizing what I need. Of feeling my best.
So why do I write? Why do I splur my lessons all over this page? I don’t know what’s in me that is so eager to share. All I know is that life can get tough sometimes. It can become tiring. It can feel gloomy and exhausting. I’m finally learning to allow myself to feel what it needs. To be gentle with myself. To accept whatever feelings might come up. If I need to feel sad? Then I allow it to take over for a while, knowing that this too shall pass. I’ve learned to allow myself to feel gloomy, to sit with it, and not expect myself to be happy all of the time. Rather, I’m learning that during these times I need to focus on what makes me feel my best – and put myself there. To recognize what I need. Both mentally and physically. I need to be on my mat. And then bring that feeling with me wherever I go. What a difference.
“It is only when you have mastered the art of loving yourself that you can truly love others. It’s only when you have opened your own heart that you can touch the hearts of others. When you feel centered and alive, you are in a much better position to be a better person.” – Robin Sharma
(author of ‘The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari’ – AMAZING BOOK – thanks Mandy!)
DO WHATEVER MAKES YOU FEEL ALIVE.
Smile with your heart.