I have no idea where this saying comes from, but I find myself repeating it back to myself from time to time. This past week has been one of those times. It all started with a blurry morning of somewhat remembering my phone taking a nose dive into the toilet – happy new year. Well it really all started in this chronic taco joint, that just so happened to be offering shots of tequilla when you bought a taco + beer combo. That’s the honest truth. So it was this rubber arm’s fault. Ha! But look how happy it made me! So for one week, my phone has been hibernating in this bag of rice along with some of those absorbency baggy things which come in your box of new shoes. You would never have guessed, but this bag of rice saved me from a very expensive mistake. Thank goodness for that! The whole week was a bit weird though. I felt totally disconnected. Using skype to make phonecalls and checking my answering machine for messages. I found myself saying: patience young grasshopper, patience! For some reason, this tends to make me laugh and helps me to see the lesson in it all. Most of the time, that is.
Another patience tester? The past few days at work. I’ve been that girl with all the questions. So many questions. So many that it becomes frustrating to the point that it makes me think, am I ever going to feel like I know what I’m doing – completely? Will I ever get there? I love asking questions, and I’m definitely not scared to. But somedays, it would be nice if I had enough experience under this belt of mine to not have to clarify or double check so many things. To have a feeling of, “I’ve got this!”. And that’s what it comes down to. Experience. Unfortunately, this is something that we can’t magically make appear with the snap of a finger. It takes time. With some things, more than others. It’s inevitable. With experience comes its ups and downs: frustration, exhaustion, feelings of wanting to give up, coupled with it’s boosts of “I’m rocking this!” on confident days with those wonderfully feeling a-ha moments.
It’s times like these that I mumble this quote in my head. Some days more dreadfully and frustration filled than others. But at the end of the day, there’s a lesson in it all. Everything is a teacher, whether we like it or not. The phone thing? Well, I learned to sit with my feelings of disconnection and take some time for myself. I didn’t reach for that next text when I was feeling bored or alone. And the work thing? Each day I step on the unit, I’m overwhelmed, and grateful at the same time, of how much I’m learning. If I don’t learn it now, that means I’ll have to learn it eventually, so you might as well load it on me all at once.
Patience. There’s beauty in the recognition of letting go, and becoming patient. Step back and become aware of what you can learn through whatever is happening in your life right now. The something that you want right at this exact moment – but it’s not happening, yet? I guarantee you’ll look back at this time later, and understand the ‘why’. So you might as well smile and try to laugh. Maybe even mumble to yourself, with a smirky/half frustrated smile, “patience young grasshopper, patience”. It sometimes works for me.
Smile with your heart!
P.S. Thank you Georgia from Social Experiment for sending me this beautiful cocktail ring. I wear it all the time! Check out her collection of West Coast & Vancouver inspired one-of-a-kind creations! Thank you!