I’m back!! Well sort of I guess. I honestly had no idea that I’d need that much of a break! Looking back, I really wonder how I was doing it all. I couldn’t even look at my blog for a while there because I just felt so overwhelmed by it. That has never happened! With having the last week and a half of my evenings all to myself, things were put big time into perspective for me. The treadmill stopped and there was no way I could have kept up with that pace. I actually had some sort of flu last week, hence the longer ‘blog-cation’ than expected. Apparently, that’s what we do to ourselves when we burn the candle at both ends. We ignore the whispers of our body trying to speak to us, and then it has no other choice but to yell.
So when I say I’m ‘sort of back’, I guess what I mean is that I’m here but not buzzing with energetic inspiration as I might have been before. But to be honest, it feels good to feel calmer and just at peace with myself. I honestly don’t want to be overly happy all of the time – it’s too much! I took the pressure off of myself and just relaxed. Slept a lot. Exercised a whole lot less. Slept some more. Spent time with only close friends and my family. Ate healthy and spent a whole lot of time by myself. I even fixed up my apartment to make it feel like my home – finally. Thanks Dad for hanging up my hammock! I had been so wrapped up in the go-go-go that the simple more important things were being left behind.
What brought me back today? A lot of your support and encouragement definitely. I really appreciated not feeling guilty for taking some extra time for myself. So THANK YOU. But the kicker? It was yoga. 2 strong, powerful, upbeat yoga classes 2 days in a row. (I even chose yoga over watching the Canucks game tonight – WHAT!! I needed it!). My hips were screaming at me yesterday, and I had somewhat of a breakthrough (or breakdown if you’d rather call it that! LOW POINT!). I have been so busy on the treadmill that I started to forget about something that is so special and important to me. My spirituality. My zen. Me. I realized that I had been forgetting about myself. My inner self. I found this once again during my yoga class. I had a good cry, let some stuff go and felt like things were slowly starting to feel a little more balanced. (There’s nothing much better than a good cry by the way. I was actually craving one. I knew it would be coming soon! My counsellor has told me numerous times – Crying is healing. This is so true.)
There’s beauty in the sadness. In the pain. Without these moments in our lives, we would never truly appreciate the happy times. I have learned through so many experiences and personal growth that the low times can be some of the best times. When we have nothing left to give, we learn to build ourselves back up. We give back to ourselves. We remember what is important. We ask for help from friends and family. This was the past week for me. Filling my own love tank up. Perhaps I was running through life so fast that I was forgetting to pay attention to what I needed. How could I expect myself to overflow with love and inspiration if I was running on empty?
Fill up your love tank! What can you do to help ensure your love tank is always as full as possible. It’s only when we TRULY love ourselves, and I’m talking unconditional, genuine SELF-LOVE, that we are able to authentically give to others and let our love tanks overflow. And another thing I learned, there’s never perfect timing for anything. There’s no, “just wait until it’s the right time!”. The right time is RIGHT NOW! Thanks to a little inspiration from lululemon’s manifesto (which is posted on the back of my bathroom door for inspiration at any given moment!):
“The world is changing at such a rapid rate that waiting to implement changes will leave you 2 steps behind. DO IT NOW, DO IT NOW, DO IT NOW!”
I could have waited longer until I was feeling all overly perky again, but what’s the point. THIS IS LIFE. Right now. It’s these moments that make it real. That make us connect with one another. So here I am – here to inspire through every moment that life presents to me. We get to choose what attitude to bring to it. I choose to keep showing up :).
Smile with your heart! (I missed saying that!!)
Here’s just a few of the things I was up to on my ‘blog-cation’! (No wonder I was pooped!)
Yes folks, I voted. It’s disappointing what percentage of the population actually gets out there and votes. Next election – no excuses!!!