Day 7 – When the treadmill stops…


(“It’s better to burn out than to fade away”)

This past weekend, the treadmill stopped.  I was on island time – or trying to be anyways. My life just came to a hault.  It wasn’t until I took time out for myself that I realized how exhausted I really am.  Sometimes life is almost easier when we’re on the treadmill.  We don’t know how to stop.  We just keep saying ‘yes’, moving forward and continually working harder and faster.  It’s like that saying, ‘if you want something done, give it to a busy person’.  So true.  This is definitely my personality, and I love it for the most part, but sometimes it’s just too much.

Seeing myself outside of my regular routine helped me to reflect on what’s important. What really matters when all of the hustle and bustle fades away.  I honestly had no idea I was this tired until it all stopped.  I found myself not even being able to relax on my vacation.  Not being able to fully embrace island time – which is one thing I love so much about it over there.  I was so worried about backed up emails, my to-do lists and trying to fit everything in.  Too much!  Next time I know that when I take time out for myself, I really need to take time out for myself.

Breaks are important.  I know this from working in the hospital where you’re constantly trying to play catch up with the clock.  I would often skip my breaks to stay ahead, until the Nurse I was working with literally had to force me to STOP! And take a break.  To ensure the treadmill stopped.  Otherwise we just keep going faster and faster… until we burnout.

I personally haven’t loved my writing since this weekend, you may have noticed a shift in my energy.  Writing this blog is what I LOVE.  I look forward to it everyday.  The past few days haven’t felt like this.  I am so passionate about this, it bothers me that I haven’t been able to put all of myself into my writing.  I’ve realized that I am not able to give as much of myself, because I’m pretty much running on empty.  I’m going to take my own advice here, and take a BREAK!  Fill myself back up so that I’m able to overflow with what I love.  Which is this!  I take pride in my blog, but right now it feels overwhelming.  So please stay tuned – I don’t know how long of a break I’ll need, probably not long since I can’t imagine not writing everyday!  But even me writing this is a challenge.  To stop the treadmill.  I’m learning I guess!  I can’t always be the “yes” girl.  I have to relax and learn more of a balance.

If you haven’t checked yet, I’ve added a few tabs under Training Tips with my ideal exercise routine and some races I’m currently training for (this is what I was doing when I was supposed to be relaxing!) – so feel free to take a look while I’m on vacation for a little while!!!  It’s actually hard for me to say this little goodbye, since I love this so much!  I guess I must be doing what I’m meant to be – my heart loves this.  Anywho, I will leave by saying “see you soon”, which one of my patients once told me that she always says instead of saying “goodbye”.  It sounds much sweeter and less permanent – so SEE YOU SOON!!! :)

I’ll be back soon (probably only a few days!) – I promise!!!  Until then….

Smile with your heart! 

THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT AND UNDERSTANDING!!! :)

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14 comments

  1. Take a break :)
    You deserve it!

  2. Good for you!!!! It is so easy to ignore our bodies and follow our routine – as always, I admire your ability to take care of yourself.

  3. Awesome! Take care of YOU!!!

  4. Wow! Good for you. As you can tell we all enjoy your blog so much, we want you to take a break and we look forward to your return, we YOU are ready. Take a break and enjoy. I agree, I much prefer the “see you soon”. Goodbye seems so definate. Thanks for your honesty. You’re an inspiration even when you don’t think you are.
    Suzanne

  5. I completely know what you mean Jenn…
    A good friend of mine says that I am a human doing, not a human being! I have learned in the past couple of years that I need to take at least one day doing absolutely nothing every month or so…..just BEING. And I have learned that it is very important to embrace this time for myself to recharge and to not feel guilty about not getting anything accomplished on my to-do list.
    A great life is all about balance :)
    Take good care of yourself and I look forward to reading your posts upon your return from your rest.
    Sonya

  6. How ironic- you inspired me to start a blog and my own 40 day challenge just recently. One of the things I wrote about today (before I even read this) is learning to say no to people and about always being a people pleaser… so I totally know where you are coming from. I love reading your blog and you have been an inspiration for me. Thank you!
    Take all the time you need, we will all be here when you are ready to come back.
    See you soon!
    xoxo – Tina

  7. Enjoy your break, JT & take care!
    <3

  8. A well deserved break JT, gonna miss your blog posts but look forward to reading what you come up with when you’re back :)

    ps. I visited Whistler and Vancouver this past Feb (fromt Toronto) for a snowboarding trip and was blown away by all the natural beauty, you guys are truly lucky!

  9. Good for you! :) We aren’t going anywhere and can’t wait til you come back! xoxo have a wonderful time.

  10. It’s funny how your posts always seem to speak to me so often – I’m feeling similarly right now. I have perfectionist tendencies and am very type-A, and I’m never one to say “no” to something. I think saying “yes” is good, but at times it gets too overwhelming. I’ve got a lot my plate right now – all good things, which I’ve created for myself and am really excited about – but it’s hard sometimes to not get overwhelmed and stressed by it all. And then I get frustrated with myself for being frustrated by something that I’m so passionate about.

    Thank you for articulating how we all feel from time to time, and for reminding us that it’s okay to take a little break once in awhile. We’re not invincible – as much as we’d like to believe it :)

  11. Hi Jenn,

    We’ll be here when you’re ready to come back. When you do, come back without apologies, okay?

    Your writing is inspiring… and your non-writing will inspire as well.

    In my line of work we say, “Presence of absence is not absence of presence” all the time. It’s comforting to know that even you, with your intensity and energy, can burn out, too. So know that even in your hiatus from your blogging you are present to us readers.

    I had my own 40 day challenge and tried to repeat it after a day’s break but didn’t end up following through, and then you posted this. You made me lighten up on myself. Thanks, Jenn! See you soon.

  12. THANK YOU SO MUCH for all of your comments and SUPPORT! I’m almost re-charged!! Loving this break but missing writing more!! I”ll be back with some inspiration this weekend!!! See you soon! THANK YOU!!! :) :)
    Love JT :)

  13. Hi there,

    Just found your blog by way of Eat,Pray, Love page on FB. I’ll have to spend some time visiting here a little later on today. I don’t believe in coincidences, so I know there’s good reason to be here.

    I’ve just taken a three year “break” from life. At first I thought my life was turning upside down. Now I see it was turned “right side up.” I got off the workaholic treadmill, left a business I had outgrown and dared to take a leap of faith and step into what I’ve always wanted to do. During this downtime, I made a map of my ideal life and got crystal clear on it. I cut out everything that I no longer wanted to do, enjoyed doing, etc. I’ve gotten back to “happy” again.

    Keep the things you enjoy and love doing that fuel you. Ditch the things that you feel you “have to , must do, should do” and watch what happens. I share your passion and love of writing. Keep doing it. It’s the medicine and the fuel and you’ll write yourself right into exactly what you truly want. Solitude is what helps you excavate it.

    It’s OK to step off the treadmill. I don’t ever intend to get back on it. But I do intend to savor and enjoy each day, and each moment and build a life that makes me leap out of bed each day to greet.

    Life is what we make it…we MUST live it like we mean it!
    Sharmaine

  14. Happy you recognized the need for a break and took one! Hoping you are rejuvenating and looking forward to your return. I love your posts! You are such an inspiration!

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