Day 19 – It’s okay!


You’ll never guess where I am right now writing this post.  I’m at my yoga studio, half a block away from my house!!  They took me in to let me use their internet – thanks guys!  I love Semperviva!  It’s my second home :).  I had to cancel my internet today, and will be working on getting it up again soon, but for now I get to write in one of the most inspiring places around.  It just feels good in here.  I’m surrounded by calm and healing energy.  I’m actually happy about originally being annoyed of searching for a wi-fi spot, because it brought me here!  Bless in the mess!

I missed my yoga class today.  Even though I’m sitting cross legged with my back straight and crown of my head reaching up tall, I’m actually not doing yoga.  Just typing away. Surprisingly, I didn’t really feel guilty about missing it today.  This is new for me because I have a tendency to be too hard on myself.  I am dissapointed that I won’t accomplish my goal of 40 classes in 40 days, but my body is telling my otherwise.  It’s telling me in very subtle ways that it’s not quite cut out to practice 40 days in a row.  I’m noticing myself looking a bit haggered lately so I’m listening to this.  REST!!!  I need this.  Also, my body is craving running which I haven’t had time to do much of lately becuase I’ve been running to my yoga classes instead of around the sea wall.

So no, I won’t be accomplishing one of my biggest and most hairiest goals this challenge, but that’s quite alright with me.  I am still getting SO MUCH out of it.  The one thing I KNOW that I have to do now is my yoga teacher training.  Soon.  Something inside of me is calling me to do this.  I know it will become another life changing milestone in my life.  (If you know of any yoga teacher training’s that you recommend, please let me know!!).  I have a picture of my yoga teacher training up on my vision board and now it’s actually going to happen.  I didn’t know when, but now it’s just completely obvious.  Funny how life works like that.

Check it out!!  I love my Semperviva and Kits family! What an amazing community to be a part of.  Tania just came out of class and showed me her iPhone app of Smile with your heart!  I love it!  And the words that just came out of Christie’s mouth (one of my favourite yoga instructors here!) after telling her that I missed a class was, “It’s okay!”.  Funny thing because I already wrote the title of this blog.  IT IS OKAY!!!

Don’t be hard on yourself for not being able to do it all.  (This is advice for me right now!).  If you’re going in the direction your heart wants, keep following it. We can’t do it all, but what we CAN do is what we love. What feels good for that moment.  For me, it’s resting tonight and heading down to the beach for a light run instead.  I’m doing what my body is telling me it needs.  It’s okay that we can’t do it all.  It actually felt good not allowing my stubbornness to take over.  I’m proud of myself for listening.

Smile with your heart!

Before I go, I have to share this quote a friend emailed to me.  It sums up my life lately, and it made me feel good.  So here you go.  Enjoy your oatmeal!

There is no controlling life.
Try corralling a lightning bolt,
containing a tornado. Dam a
stream and it will create a new
channel. Resist, and the tide
will sweep you off your feet.
Allow, and grace will carry
you to higher ground. The only
safety lies in letting it all in –
the wild and the weak; fear,
fantasies, failures and success.
When loss rips off the doors of
the heart, or sadness veils your
vision with despair, practice
becomes simply bearing the truth.
In the choice to let go of your
known way of being, the whole
world is revealed to your new eyes.

– Danna Faulds

Namaste.  Ohmmmmmmmm!  (I can hear it coming from the room beside me – I love this!)

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6 comments

  1. Jen! Did you KNOW that the theme of Christie’s class last night was letting go of being in control?? If not, that’s just weird!! And that’s a beautiful quote, thank you.

    Thanks for the shout-out! It’s actually not an app (just so the fans here don’t get too excited… one day there will be a Smile With Your Heart App…but not today!) — it’s actually just this website bookmarked on my iPhone homescreen (easy access in the mornings!) And the icon is of you (JT) doing side splits in the mountains. It makes me happy :)

    TGIF friends!

    • Weird, I had no idea!!! So strange!!! hahah.. oops to the app! That’s crazy! And I was just drawn to the studio that night… the universe works in amazing ways!! :)

  2. Good job for listening to your body! :)
    Was your 40 day yoga challenge to take 40 yoga classes? If it’s just to do yoga every day for 40 days it doesn’t require a class every time. You could do a sun salutation before you start to run and a stretch/surrender series after you are done running… And there you have it. Two birds. One stone. Just a thought. Happy friday!

  3. Hey Jenn! Don’t worry about not going to a class for 40 days in a row – I agree with the last post, do *some* sort of yoga each day – for me, there are 3 days a week where there are NO classes at Semperviva that fit into my schedule, not even the early morning ones. These are the days I do my home practice – and I love it. I have a chance to really do what my body is craving. Today I did a 10 minute headstand, 15 minutes of meditation and 35 minutes of flow followed by some deep stretching. A.MA.Z.I.NG. Listening to your body is yoga in itself don’t forget. So don’t you dare beat yourself up about it!

    all the love in the world

    Elizabeth.

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