Another day of blah for me! Don’t get me wrong, I had a lot of happy moments and feel good times, but overall I’m just exhausted. Here’s a picture of me on my way to work this morning – the beach is right outside my door! I can’t imagine living anywhere more perfect for me. Life is good, but I’m starting to hit the wall big time. Throughout my whole yoga class today I was counting down the minutes to when I could go home and just do nothing. I even had to cancel plans tonight in order to just sit down on my bed (in the living room still) and do nothing. I am DONE!! I can’t shake off the irritability, but oh well. That’s life. Up and down. Calm one day, irritable the next.
ANYWAYS! Pookie is over right now which has helped lift my spirits. She shared with me her “story” which she recently created and wrote down in her journal – her “I am grateful for’s” on the right side of the page. I’ve never thought of the right side of the page as a story. I really liked the idea! She read it allowed to me, and I could actually picture her life in the future as she was describing it. What a cool idea!!! Saying your dreams out loud to make them even MORE believable, AND making yourself accountable to what you actually want in life. Following your heart.
I think that sometimes we settle. We think, “I don’t deserve that”, or “that won’t happen to me”. NO WAY!! PUT IT OUT THERE!! Write down your story and share it with the people you love. Let the people who care about you KNOW what you really want. They’ll be stoked to know how big you’re dreaming and you’ll be surprised at how much they’ll want to help you make it happen. Things might just happen a lot sooner than you think when you put it out there. Now I’m super stoked for Pookie’s life coming up because I KNOW what she really wants!! And it brings you closer to the people you love because you’re sharing something that means a lot to you, which is sometimes hard to do. Both sides win, and you get to create the life of your dreams including everyone in it that you love. When you get there (and you will), they’ll be even happier for you because they’ll know how badly you wanted it.
I’m going to write my story in the next few days. I’m excited. But first, I’m going to take a few days off for myself and just CHILL! I’m still going to blog, but just know that I’m not quite my high spirited self, which is nice to finally be able to accept that and be okay with it. Maybe these feelings are helping me to become more calm? That’s one big thing I wanted to gain from this challenge. I think that it might just be. I like it.
Smile with your heart!