Wow, it’s good to be back!! I have been blogged deprived!! It’s definitely been an adjustment being back home. I’ve learned and changed a ton, and being back is a little uncomfortable. I have to almost re-learn myself and my surroundings!! But it feels amazing being back in Kitsilano with my family, friends and yoga community. THIS is my home!! I definitely learned that while I was away. Since I’ve been so blog deprived, I have a TON to write today, and in the up coming weeks. I’ve learned almost too much to handle at this moment, so I’m taking each day as it comes right now.
Today is a special day for me. It’s my birthday, but it doesn’t feel like a regular birthday. It’s my 29th. My twenty-MINE. This year is all about me. Something switched for me on my last week of the trip. A lot of things happened, and it led me to make some dramatic changes in my life. I know I shared my previous goals with you all in an earlier post. I was so stoked to continue traveling, blogging and being a free floating gypsy spirit. I guess you could say that at first I was a little embarrassed, or flakey, that I had put out all of my goals, and now was thinking of completely changing them. Well, what do you know. Things changed, and I guess that’s why it’s important to have more than one goal because LIFE CHANGES. Shit happens! I’m learning that the only constant thing in life IS change. So get ready for this. Here are my top 3 new goals for my year of twenty mine:
1. Kick butt on the CRNE exam TOMORROW! and become a Registered Nurse in BC!
2. Get a job as a NURSE! (preferably in Vancouver!)
3. Find an apartment I love walking distance to where I work (crossing my fingers for Kitsilano!)
It started with my scuba diving medical assessment at Airlie Beach. I wrote down that my occupation was a ‘nurse’, but this didn’t feel right. It felt fake. I then began speaking with the nurse, who I mentioned before, inspired me to write the American Nursing exam and travel with my profession. Hmmmmm. The wheels began to start turning right here.
The next thing that happened was that I learned I LOVED scuba diving! I LOVE THE WATER!! I loved having like-minded, healthy, fit, health-conscious people around me doing what they love. I loved that I did something that scared the CRAP out of me, yet found a new addiction I can take anywhere with me around the world. Who knew that doing something that scared you could open up so many new doors? Wow. Life changing. On these 3 days of scuba diving, I was beginning to realize that I need a community around me, of GOOD people doing what they love.
So the wheels continued to turn when I went on the sail boat scuba adventure for 3 days in the Whitsunday Islands. Before I even got on the boat, I remember talking on the phone to Pookie and was like, ‘I’m done’. I need to work. I need a job. I need stability. I need a familiar home. At this point, I guess I felt I had shaken whatever out of me that was obviously needing to get out. Again on the boat, I had to pose as a “fake nurse”. The skipper asked if there were any doctors or nurses on the boat, so I put up my hand. It didn’t feel right. I didn’t feel qualified to help if I really needed to. So that was that.
There was also a natural disaster only a one hour plane ride away from me. I think this was the kicker. I saw the shelves at Airlie Beach becoming bare. Every one along the East Coast of Australia was suffering, but not nearly as bad as the people in Brisbane. I wanted to help, but felt I didn’t have yet what I could offer. I learned that I NEED to help. I NEED to feel qualified. I need experience so that I can help people in need. THIS is how I become fulfilled. There got to a point when I was travelling during this time, and began to feel selfish. It became hard just spending money on doing fun things, when there was a city in need of help so close by.
So many things happened in this week, I can barely take it all in now. But today, I’m excited. Scared as hell, but excited. My RN exam is tomorrow and I’m actually excited to rack my brain of everything I’ve learned in 4 years. I feel smart. I feel good. This just feels right. I’m ready to kickASS at Nursing. I know it’s going to be hard, and I’m going to want to pull my hair out a LOT of the time, but I am ready for the challenge. I want to make such a difference in this world and I know that this is my first stepping stone to do that. I know that I won’t be a nurse forever, but right now this is leading me in the direction I want to go. I want to travel and help with a home base, surrounded by a family I love. I do want to enjoy travelling for myself, but I want a mix of both. It’s funny how life can change on a dime, or in my case, on a whim flight to take a scuba diving course on the Great Barrier Reef. I will never forget it.
So thank you Ryan, my Nursing preceptor (and Sabrina!) for inspiring me to do my scuba diving in Australia. Because of this seed you planted, I am making some powerful and exciting life changing decisions. I think that’s pretty funny how I was inspired by my Nursing mentors to be a Nurse in a round a bout way – Bravo you two! Bravo. I will be forever grateful!
On my last night in Australia, I stayed at the place I started off at – Manly Beach. I had an offer to meet up with some friends I met my very first night in town, but decided to spend my last night by myself on the beach. I felt so good. I felt calm, grounded, and happy alone. I will never forget that sunset. I decided here that I was READY to go back home. I was ready for this year of One Love. Funny thing is, when I looked up in the far distance at the end of the beach (which I had not seen the entire time being there), there was a massive red heart with the word ‘ONE’ beside it. I started laughing and, not gonna lie, had a few small tears of happiness and laughter. I felt that my whole trip had just summed it self up. Well done Australia – Bravo once again. Life is good.
This year for me is dedicated to ONE LOVE. I’m planting my roots. I want stability. I want one job, one apartment, one partner, one family, one love. I’m tired of constant change, so I’m taking some control of my life! Moving 11 times in 4.5 years of Nursing school was ENOUGH! I’m still wanting to travel, but I’m going to wait for a bit. I’m already booked in to volunteer as a Nurse at BC Bike Race this summer which is something I’ve always wanted to do. THIS is my new way of travel. AND, you will be happy to know, I will keep blogging. My blank canvas won’t be filled with travel experiences in Asia or India (yet), but will show the scary, exciting, tears, belly laughs, bold and bright new colors of starting a fresh new life. Here’s to my once in a lifetime chance of starting fresh. Choosing what I want, and painting a canvas as bright and as inspiring as possible.
One more thing! (There will be so much more to come – I can’t stop writing), BUT! I was doing a shoot the other day for Lululemon, and was put on the spot during a video interview at the end. John asked me, “So, if there was one thing you could do and KNEW you wouldn’t fail, what would it be?”. I was stunned. Shocked. Didn’t know what to say. I think it came out like this: “Ohhhh boy. Umm. Ahhhh! That’s a tough one!! My goals have all just changed!! Ahhhh! Okay. …… Write a book. I want to write a book. I want to inspire people to live their greatest life possible. That’s it!” Same goal as before, just filled with completely different stories. :)
So this is my “book” for now. I love to write, and felt strange not writing for the past few weeks. So I’m back. My goal is to keep blogging everyday. Thank you for all of the emails and support. It keeps me going, I can’t say it enough! I’m doing what I love, and I guess that I’m helping at the same time. Thank you for letting me know that I’m making a difference.
Get ready for a new roller coaster in the life of JT. Who knows where it’s going to take me. It’s funny though, on my birthday I always write a list of things I’m grateful for. This list is COMPLETELY different than what it was last year. And I’m so grateful for everything that has happened to me, both good AND bad. Challenges show us our strengths. I’ve definitely become aware of MANY strengths this year!
Smile with your heart!