I’m en route at the moment to New Castle which is about a 2 hour train ride north of Bondi. It was sad leaving Raf in Bondi but I’m stoked to be visiting Danna in a new city! Danna is an awesome friend who I met through Murf. Yet another thank you his way. I gained so much from our relationship and find myself continually grateful for that. I like to say people come into our lives for a reason, a season or a lifetime. So thank you for such a beautiful season. The seasons have definitely changed on this side of the world. Sometimes I guess it takes a removal of ourselves out of the ordinary to gain a greater perspective and clearer understanding of our current circumstances. The fog which had been blocking my optimism towards my future is starting to lift.
On October 29th, I wrote about my feelings of fear towards my future as I hadn’t expected such a fast pull of the rug underneath my feet. I had a rough summer with an on again off again relationship. I remember waking up one particular afternoon from a nap and feeling like I was in a nightmare. It literally felt more safe to be asleep. That was the ugliest most frightening feeling I’ve ever had. I’m so glad to be passed that point.
A lot of time has passed since that nightmare. I no longer face the future with fear. Rather, I can honestly say I couldn’t ask for a better situation. NOTHING is holding me back from doing anything and everything that I love. I am so grateful now NOT to be in a relationship back home or have any other ties there. It’s just funny how before this scared the crap out of me, and now I wouldn’t want it any other way.
So just wait. If you’re stuck in the fog between a rock and a hard place, KNOW that this too shall pass. It always does. There really is beauty in EVERYTHING. Sometimes it’s just hidden by the fog, and it only takes time to begin to start seeing life more clearly once again. Trust that things will change, trust that the fog will slowly begin to lift. That is part of this adventure we call life. Learning, growing, discovering and expanding our horizons! All with the basic foundation of TRUST. Trust it!
Smile with your heart!