I’ve had this goal of finishing Nursing school for 4 years now. I always kind of assumed that at the end of it, there would be this “happy” life waiting for me. I would love my job, continue to be in an amazing relationship, possibly engaged, and be in the midst of one day soon owning a condo together, you know, like starting a life together. You name it, I thought it. I was working hard for this picture-perfect life that I imagined to be waiting for me in the future. Nothing could go wrong with this fairytale picture, because I dreamt it and I was sure it would happen. Funny thing is, my life right now is QUITE the opposite. I am finishing my degree in probably one of the worst Nursing hiring freezes in BC history, I’m single, I’ve moved twice in the past 5 months not yet able to have a solid home and I have NO IDEA where I will be living or working in February once I’ve written my exam. Crazy!
Instead of looking at this new picture with disappointment, I choose to embrace it. I choose to find happiness in EVERY moment. I didn’t expect this all to happen, but what the heck, I’m gonna enjoy it because this is MY life. Why wouldn’t I make the most out of everything that happens to me??! I am learning that there is no pursuit to happiness. Rather, happiness can be found in every moment of every day. If we are always trying to chase happiness, then we will definitely never experience it. There is no such thing as “when this happens, I will be happy” or “I can’t wait until BLANK because then I will be so happy and life will be so easy!”. Nope. Not even close. If we are always expecting happiness to be waiting for us, we are sure to be continually disappointed. Life just always seems to throw us curve balls. So when you think you’ve finally reached your happy point, something is guaranteed to cause some sort of chaos. It just works this way! Instead of fighting this balance of life, learn to embrace every moment and find the happiness in even the worst times.
I’m finding my happiness in drinking a glass of wine right now, listening to some good tunes and writing this blog. ☺ I’m spending time with my friends from class because we are all in this program together. We might as well enjoy it because it won’t last forever. Sure I’m sad with what has happened recently in my life, but $*@! happens!! So laugh with it. Feel it. Don’t think too far ahead. Just smile at this EXACT moment in time and be grateful for any emotion that you feel right now because THIS is happiness! Being at peace with this unpredictable life balance. There is no fairytale, picture-perfect happy ending. Embrace the ups and downs, the laughter, the sadness, you name it. Stop looking for happiness! Be still, and you’ll learn that it’s all inside of us. :)
Smile with your heart!